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Thought we were going together.

It's hard to know what to expect when you do things. So I just generally don't expect anything to happen as a result of my actions. This tactic invariably leads to one of two outcomes: disappointment because something bad happened (ie. I get in trouble) or awkward disappointment because nothing happens. They say things like, "I guess this didn't turn out the way you planned." and I think something like, Well no because I didn't plan anything, but this did turn out exactly how I imagined it would.

Awkwardly.

Sometimes I like to get on craigslist and look through the musician postings. There are always a bunch of them posting things like, "Need drummer" or "PROS ONLY - NEED GIGS" or "looking for like minded death metal grind core enthusiasts" and the like. But then there are some that are appealing to me. Like "lo-fi campus band seeks anyone for drums - have set" or "indie folk band seeks multi-instrumentalists - woodwinds welcomed!" And it's always so tempting to respond to them and say, "YES! YES! I'LL DO IT, PICK ME PLEASE!" But I know that I really don't have the time to devote myself to something like that right now. There's just too much else to worry about first. And it's a struggle not to click respond to post. Partly because I want to do it so badly but mostly because I know if I don't, I'll have missed an opportunity and I'll regret it forever.

But excuses are so easy to come by.

It was the first time anyone had really gotten me mixed up with somebody else like that. I laughed it off. Felt bad man.

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