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Those ships, all three.

So I found out, the hard way of course, that I cannot go the entire night without taking my pain medications. It surprised me how much of my face I could actually feel but wasn't. Surprised me in a bad way. I only have three days worth of that nectar left. After that, I'm on my own. So, you know, let's hope this stop hurting in three days.

The swelling feels like it went back up, but I think that's partly because of last night. I didn't ice it for very long and I didn't really take any medicine on time. I won't be doing that today. Today, I think I'm going to rake some leaves or something. My stamina is, I admit, pretty embarrassing, so that may be all I do today besides walk around the house and play video games.I'm trying my best not to fall into what would absolutely be my usual routine of misery, self-pity, and trying to rapidly form self-destructive habits with all of the addictive medications I've been prescribed. But it's pretty hard. I have to say that honestly, this is the worst I've ever felt.

I mean, I have to eat with a baby spoon for God's sake. And I can barely fit that in my mouth. I hope this all goes away by Christmas. That would be the best present, like, ever.

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Ashley said…
You can tell the swelling is going down if you compare this picture to your last one :]
December 19, 2009 at 9:38 AM
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