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Just an exercise in aesthetics.

Today was just one of those days. One of those days where you wake up and everything and everybody is against you. These days happen to me more often than I like, but that comes with being a relapsing surly, cynical bastard given to frequent and extreme mood swings.

Everything just got under my skin today.

Maybe it was waking up early before my alarm clock. Maybe it was the laugh they made when they messed up the first time. Maybe it was the look they gave when they thought they were being funny. Maybe it was the inflection they took when they got cranky. Maybe it was everything. But I think I did a pretty good job of playing it down. Of not taking it the wrong way. Of not letting it get to me. I mean, by now I'm pretty used to the routine. And I know it's not being fair to people. It's not them, it's me. I'm the one who's blowing up.

So, you know. It's all over.

For some reason I thought that the meteor shower was tonight. It was what I was looking forward to all day. But it turns out that I was wrong. So I looked forward to nothing all day. But now Becket is playing on AMC. So I guess all of the suck that was today sort of evens out with a really good movie. Too bad there's nobody to share it with.

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